I was seriously burnt out on all fronts. Life and work became so stressful I lost my focus. Basically I’ve gotten out of shape. Most of my friends say I am not out of shape but to my standards yes I am. I’m carrying an extra 11-12lbs of weight and about 8-9% extra body fat as I enter mid June of this year.
What I’ve learned is that the simplest things can interfere with my goals. I went through a crappy break up after a year of a relationship that was draining me emotionally and physically.
I also learned that maintaining a proper diet is not as hard as I thought but not sticking to it is easy. Most of the diet changes I had I started stayed in tact but I struggled mostly with portion control and allowing myself too many store bought meals.
I had to relearn that I have to put myself first. I had grown comfortable with going to work, going to the gym, coming back home to study, and prepare for the next day. All of that fell out of sync when I started to want to avoid home.
I learned that I don’t like running distances more than 6-7 miles. 5k to 10ks are appropriate for me.
I learned that it is really hard to not let other people influence you and your program.
I also learned that it is important to associate yourself with people who have similar goals and objectives even if they are not on the same plan.
Beware of people who want to support you but sabotage your plan by trying to do your plan instead of their own.
I remembered why I started to get myself back in shape.
I learned so much and had have so many experiences I don’t know where to begin again but I do know I miss the feeling of my body feeling in great shape.
As I lay on the beach today observing people around me I am reminded of the things I like and love to do in life. It’s time for me to reenter that world of self discipline and get myself back on track.
This time I am going to try to be completely transparent in my struggles and my achievements here. This time I will allow everyone around me to hold me accountable openly and in the eye of the public.